Bloom + Flourish Collective

🌸 Where I’m Starting From

I met my husband in October 2019, and about a year later, we moved in together and started building our life as a team. We weren’t actively trying for a baby at first, but we also weren’t preventing it. It felt like something that would happen in its own time.

For the last two years, we’ve been more intentional — timing things, hoping each month might be the one. I knew, with us both being a little older (I’m 37 and he’s 49), it might take a little longer. But I really thought it would have happened by now.

My husband has two sons from a previous marriage, and I’ve always pictured myself becoming a mother too. I used to think the hard part would be preventing a pregnancy — not creating one. That belief — that I was meant to be a mum — has never left me… but the waiting has tested it more than expected.

🌸 What Brought Me to This Point

At first, I felt hopeful and excited. Each new month brought fresh anticipation — but also fresh disappointment when my period arrived. I tried to stay positive, but over time the hope started to feel heavier.

Eventually, I had to face the reality that it wasn’t happening — and that I wasn’t getting any younger. I spoke to my GP and began some initial tests. Deep down, I started to believe that we might only conceive with some help. It was a difficult realisation — not just because of the uncertainty, but because the process itself is scary. Physically, emotionally, financially — it’s overwhelming in so many ways.

Now, with our first fertility specialist appointment approaching, I feel a swirl of emotions — anxious about what we’ll be told, how treatment might affect our lives, and how we’ll manage the cost. But there’s one thing I know for sure: the thought of walking away from the hope of motherhood weighs far heavier than the fear of what comes next.

🌸 Why I’m Sharing This

Sharing this publicly — anonymously, for now — is something I never imagined I’d do. But the silence around infertility can be deafening. I kept waiting for someone else to say the things I was feeling.

Eventually, I realised maybe that someone could be me.

I’m not an expert, and I don’t have a plan all figured out. I’m just a woman taking a first step into something big and unknown. And that’s really where this began — with one small, brave step.

Making the appointment.

Starting this blog.

Beginning the Bloom + Flourish Collective.

Because sometimes the bravest thing we can do is begin — before we’re ready, before we know the outcome, before we feel like we’re “enough.” That first step might be imperfect, but it’s a move toward hope, and that counts for everything.

The more I thought about sharing, the more it grew into something bigger. What if this space could be more than one woman’s story? What if it became a place for other women to grow too — through infertility, through motherhood, through any season of transformation?

🌸 Journaling Before You Reach Out

If you’re standing at the start of this journey, I want to offer something that helped me feel more grounded: reflection.

These are some gentle journaling prompts I returned to before taking my own first step — reaching out for help.

What brought me to this point?
What fears or hesitations am I carrying?
What am I hoping for — even if I don’t dare say it out loud?
Who do I want to share this journey with (if anyone)?
What would I say to myself with kindness in this moment?

You don’t have to write pages. You don’t need all the answers.

Just a few quiet moments to connect inward before moving forward.

🌸 An Invitation to Follow Along

This is the beginning of my fertility journey — but it’s also the beginning of the Bloom + Flourish Collective.

A space that will grow with me, and I hope, with you too.

What starts here as a personal story will grow into something more: a place to reflect, connect, and take meaningful steps forward — whatever path you’re on. There will be space for community, creativity, and gentle structure — things to do, things to collect, and ways to grow that feel grounding and good.

If you’re navigating uncertainty, waiting quietly, or just longing to feel more like yourself again — you are so welcome here.

We don’t have to go through this alone.

Welcome to the Bloom + Flourish Collective.

A space rooted in fertility — blooming into so much more. 🌸

If you’re navigating infertility, identity, or just growing through a season that’s testing you… you’re not alone.

Do you ever feel like you’re destined for beautiful life, but you’re just not sure which path to take?

Do you have big plans — but feel overwhelmed by them?

Or maybe you freeze when it’s time to choose a goal… so you don’t choose at all.

Do I have enough time?

Enough money?

Am I enough?

This is me.

I’ve always felt I was here for a reason — that there was something meaningful I was meant to do. But I’ve spent years pivoting, second-guessing, and stopping short… afraid of what failure might mean.

The one thing I’ve never questioned?

That I’d be a mother one day.

I’m not there yet. But I still believe.

I didn’t meet my husband until my 30s, and I always believed the rest would fall into place — that pregnancy would be the easy bit.

We’ve been together for five years now… and it hasn’t happened.

So I’m taking the first tentative steps on my fertility journey — hopeful, scared, and quietly excited.

It’s a path I never imagined I’d have to walk this way… and I don’t want to do it alone.

There’s so much I don’t know yet.

But what I do know is that I want to grow through this with intention — to create rhythms, rituals, and a sense of purpose while I wait to become a mother.

That’s where Bloom + Flourish Collective begins.

What is Bloom + Flourish Collective?

Right now, this space begins with one story — mine.

A fertility journey just getting started, shared honestly and with heart.

But it’s not just about me.

Bloom + Flourish is a space to follow this journey — not just the medical steps, but the emotional ones too: the routines I build, the rituals I practice, the mindset shifts that help me stay grounded.

It’s for women like me — thoughtful, intentional, often in waiting seasons — who want to make their lives as good and meaningful as they can be, right now.

And I’m not here with all the answers.

I’m learning too — about patience, about purpose, about soft strength.

As the collective grows, I’ll be growing with it.

Over time, I hope this becomes more than a place to witness — I want it to be a place to become.

A space for growth and learning.

For creativity and care.

For developing not just as mothers, but as women.

Whether you’re trying to conceive, rebuilding after loss, or simply choosing to show up for yourself more fully — I hope you find something here that helps you bloom, in your own way, at your own pace.

An Invitation

If any of this speaks to you —

If you’re in a waiting season

Or wondering what to do with all your hope, your plans, your potential —

You’re welcome here.

I don’t have a perfect plan.

I don’t know exactly how this will unfold.

But I’m building it anyway — with care, with courage, and with an open heart.

Bloom + Flourish Collective is a space for growing slowly, purposefully, and in good company.

A space to remember that your life doesn’t start after the next milestone — it’s happening right now.

And you deserve to make it beautiful.

So if you’re also learning how to bloom — at your own pace, in your own way — I hope you’ll come along.

Let’s grow together.

With love,

Laura x

The First Step in My Fertility Journey